We have an innate ability to neatly store away all kinds of unsavory events, behaviors and shortcomings while we walk around like a Disney Character on Ice. How do we do that? Simply said, "when the light is green, the trap is clean." But store up too many and Lenny - when the grid shuts down, you're looking at a catastrophe of Biblical proportion.
If faced with life's problems that seem particularly difficult, it is not weakness to suggest crossing the streams. Ask for help. Sometimes one unlicensed nuclear particle accelerator is just not enough.